It’s been a while since my last entry (which was mainly about my ski trip) and I feel somewhat apologetic to myself because I’ve been procrastinating the writing of anything at all and somehow the longer I drag it out, the harder it is for me to get started.
Sometimes I wonder if this blogging journey of mine will eventually sunset as well. I’ve always been a jack 0f all trades kind of person who wants to try everything and anything, and then somewhere along the way I will lose the motivation to continue. Right now, I’m in my cross-stitching phase whereby I had something in mind to do up for my new house, so I found a customizer on taobao and went ahead to order the raw materials but gosh, it has been one month and I’ve only completed one colour (on single stitch). Cross-stitch patience is really a notch higher than crochet. I usually finish my crochet creations in about 2 weeks and this one is probably gonna take me 2 months, or perhaps longer. Now I wonder if I can even finish it before my house is done and it’s not even a big piece. I think it’s like 20 by 30 or 40cm or something. Oh wells, let’s hope I do complete it and share some pictures.
There had been many ideas of topics that I wanted to discuss here. Fleeting ideas to cross my mind randomly but the moment I don’t type it out, it’s gone. I think I wanted to express my opinion about AI – and how much it could be going in the wrong direction. The other was about ‘hoarding’ and how I fear this habit will be brought into my new house. But let me just continue with my random updates.
The world is.. changing so crazily fast, rapid and.. random. Everyone was wondering when the Ukraine war will end and suddenly we are having another Iran/Israel/Middle East conflict. This is the biggest impact of any war in my lifetime thus far. The fuel prices are skyrocketing and the cancelled 2 f1 races in the middle east. I know it is like such a super trivial thing, but I was quite upset about it as I had been looking forward to the f1 season with this awkward new regs – and well, we did have 3 races so far. If the situation don’t stabilize, I guess there will be 3 more middle east races to axe? While I’m happy for the drivers and the team to have an extended long break, my weekends for April is now.. too free to be true. Well, I should be packing up my stuff and getting ready for the move but procrastinator me ain’t gonna make it happen. I guess I’m the sort that will just pack up the essentials and move to the new place and return back few years later and say fine, let’s throw everything else away. To be honest, as much as I am looking forward to moving out, the fear is.. always there. Like if there are insects at home, there’s no one I could call for help immediately. If I forget/lose my keys? Do I have to call a locksmith? Gosh and the monthly expenditure is gonna shoot up as well.. I have been rather blessed for X many years of my life and I guess moving out is where the real adulting starts. We all got to start somewhere so.. let’s step into the unknown, really soon.
My corporate work life is also pretty much a mayhem these days with the endless restructuring and departures. I always remind myself how I feel like I’m ‘overstaying’ too long in this current place but I’m also not making any action to introduce changes to my life either. I’m just.. going with the flow as always. I guess I have to just stick with it while I look forward to my 2 holidays later this year. Then again, like how I like to remind myself time and again, work might just be a means to get money.
Another thing I want to mention was that I finished watching the 3 seasons of “That Summer I turned Pretty” which was filmed in the US and I was pretty mindblown somewhat because there were episodes that made me reminisce my short stay in US back when I did the working holiday thing back in 2010 – which was 16 years ago. In fact, that was my first and last time setting foot into the US. Back then, I was working at a candy shop at a beach boardwalk family amusement park which was by the beach. We also stayed by the beach so there were many scenes that struck a familiar chord with me. Wow, nothing changed in 16 years and double wow, the things you see in dramas are things that I have seen in real life before. In case you’re wondering why I am so shocked, well, it’s because I don’t watch that much american dramas so.. it’s been a while, and it was a pleasant nostalgic emotions to watch that series, despite all that agony with the characters in the plot. TLDR, I feel that belly is the problem, but then again because she is the problem, there are her stories to write. Does that even make any sense?
Another thing that I wanted to type about is really this hype with AI and in all honesty, are we wasting too much resources vs the benefits? Many times, I feel that AI is making me so lazy that I’ll just ask AI instead of using my brain to think. I planned my europe trip using Chat GPT suggestion and I have yet to validate it against real research yet – procrastinating at work yet again. Then again, because of AI’s help, I could secure all my accommodation bookings like 10 months prior and most places are more expensive now. Think Free Cancellation and Pay Later. No idea how hospitality industry survives with all these. I’ve also started using Gemini and ChatGPT to build a F1 fantasy team to play against myself because I didn’t have much friends playing along with me. Sounds kind of dumb but guess what, 3 races in, my team (with my own brains) is losing to Team Gemini. In addition, I’ve been using AI to help me with my renovation decisions, and even asking them to generate mockup of wall colours and designs for me and ALSO to read bazi predictions which is subjectively accurate on many days (compared to the real reading from a master). So, I kind of got ‘scolded’ by my cousin on how my reliance on AI and the stupid things I made AI to do.. she said to me, ain’t I wasting precious computing power (which is electricity and computing chips) on nonsensical things? Indeed, I really didn’t need AI’s help for many things but if that help exist, why am I not using it? BRrrrh. I internally struggled for a moment but then life went by and my usage didn’t stop. I have no idea where this AI thing is going to but the fossil fuels are gonna burn burn burn burn and earth will die someday but hopefully I won’t be around to see that happen. That’s such a selfish thought of me but.. oh wells, I also don’t know how can I not put myself into this AI trend when the whole world is doing it? End of mindless chain of thoughts with.. no conclusion, yet again.
And with that, my mind comes to a blank, again.
Adios, for now. At this rate I think I might really stop writing..
