This is it.
I’m officially unemployed (for now).
Many people applaud me for my bravery, though in my own mind I’m like.. so many people have done this before and this is really nothing new or special but I still feel the jittery thinking whether this was the right decision at the right time.
Well, should I still be hesitating any longer, I’m gonna hit the age limit for the application and I’ll live the rest of my life; perhaps regretting.
I do feel sad for leaving a stable job and income but at this point in time, I really feel I needed a break.
For the past five years across two employers, I’ve never ever taken a vacation where I did not have to check my work email, reply social media accounts, answering to work whatsapp etc. For whatever reason it may be, I can’t seem to let go of work fully.
When I was a lot younger, I did have a dream of having a small strawberry plantation where I will harvest strawberries to sell them frozen with a chocolate coat. All you have to do is to microwave them for 5-10 seconds and it would somehow be very delicious. dreams.
I have no idea where i’m flying, when I’m flying, or what I’ll be working as. Where, When, What, How, Why – I do not have answers for most of them. I’ll let you know when I get there, this is my politically correct stop asking me any more questions statement.
Well, I tried. to get a job – I applied for every single ski resort but I guess lucky and fate is not on my end but that’s not too much of a bad thing either.
It means that I have the luxury of time to play around and travel a bit before settling in for some work (if that day ever comes) but before that, I hope to be updating this page more regularly with my mini travels before the big one.
Can I give up city life for the sound of music?
To be honest, I really don’t know. Deep down inside me, I know I’m pretty much a city girl and I enjoy the convenience of having everything that I enjoy within close proximity.
I do not have to drive an hour to the nearest cinema and my friends/entertainment/food is always nearby. I’m still pretty curious about how far I can go and I have a slightly teeny weeny feeling that I may not enjoy nature as much, if I had to give up so many other things but that being said,
I’m gonna try.
What’s the worse that can happen?
I’ll just pack my bags and come home. I know my bed and my plushies will always be there waiting for me.
While I’m there, I’m gonna pray hard that the powers of nature solve my hair-loss issues and perhaps the beautiful nature motivates me to get out and walk and perhaps exercise more. So many expectations that I want to achieve – let’s revisit this again in 6-9 months time.
Ending off this post with an excerpt from a meaningful book (Love for imperfect things by Haemin Sunim) that I’ve read in the past month.
To my beloved young friends:
Each time I see your slumped shoulders, each time I hear your listless voice, my heart aches.
How are you these days? Did you have another long day at school or work?
It seems no one has told you that if you’re courageous, you can create your own destiny; it is entirely up to you to decide what kind of life you would like to have. Instead, you have been told by your parents and teahers that you should just follow the norm and do what the world expects of you.
If you say that you want to become a musician or an artist, if you want to travel the world, if you want to have a serious relationship, you might be told:
“Now is not the right time. You should concentrate on your studies.”
When you start college, you thought you could finally have the life you wanted. But then what happened?
You were told to prepare for your career. You had to apply for summer internships and study for qualifying exams.
Again, you were bombarded with reasons to delay your own life.
We have become accustomed to sacrificing the present for the saek of the future.
We consider it a matter of course that the present just has to be put up with until one day that bright future arrives.
We have overlooked the importance of enjoying the journey while prizing only the destination.
But in he course of our lives, there comes a time when we begin to doubt whether this present that we are enduring will ever lead to the future of our dreams.
Even if the dream comes true, will it be worth the sacrifice we made to our relationships and health and happiness in oder to achieve it?
And what if the dream we achieved was never ours but that of our parents or teachers?
But just once, for just one moment in my life, I had to try to live a life without regret.
Even if others scorn me and mock my decision, only having done it can I look at myself and say with confidence that I have loved my life.
It’s okay to live the life that you wish for.
You are allowed to create your own destiny, free from the expectations of your parents and society.
You can live the life you yourself think has meaning.
Even if those around you try to dissuade you, saying you can’t, you musn’t, it won’t work, they are not living your life for you, are they?
Many people who try to forge their own path or strike out for uncharted territory come up against strong opposition.
If your timid heart wonders, “Is it really okay?”; have the courage to smile back at your heart and say firmly, ‘Yes, it is!”
Even if you fail, you will learn from your mistakes and try it differently next time. Besides, it is better to experience failure while you are still young.
The way to be free of worry and anxiety is to focus your attention on the present moment.
Do not be afraid of making mistakes. Be afraid only of not learning from your mistakes.
Link to the author and his books: https://www.bookdepository.com/search?searchTerm=haemin%20sunim&search=Find+book
^^ Till next time 😉